Happiness - is when what you think, what you say and what you do are in harmony
Mahatma Ghandi

Attitude - The only disability in life is a bad attitude.
Scott Hamilton

Beliefs - Are what divide people, doubt unites them.
Peter Ustinov


Passion - Only passions, great passions, can elevate the soul to great things.
Dennis Diderot


Destiny - Always do your best. What you plant now will harvest later.



Faith - is taking the first step even when you don't see the whole staircase.
Martin Luther King Jr.



Thoughts - A man is but the product of his thoughts, what he thinks, he becomes.
Mahatma Ghandi



Knowledge - An investment in knowledge always pays the best interest.
Benjamin Franklin


Hope - is faith holding out its hand in the dark.
George Lies


Kindness - Is the language which the deaf can hear and the blind can see.
Mark Twain

Laughter - is the shortest distance between two people
Victor Borge


Joy - Real joy comes from not ease or riches
or from the praise of man,
but from doing something worthwhile.
Sir Wilfred Grenfell


Victory - Self conquest is the greatest victories.
Plato

Superman (Five For Fighting)

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
I'm just out to find
The better part of me

I'm more than a bird:I'm more than a plane
More than some pretty face beside a train
It's not easy to be me

Wish that I could cry
Fall upon my knees
Find a way to lie
About a home I'll never see

It may sound absurd:but don't be naive
Even Heroes have the right to bleed
I may be disturbed:but won't you conceed
Even Heroes have the right to dream
It's not easy to be me

Up, up and away:away from me
It's all right:You can all sleep sound tonight
I'm not crazy:or anything:

I can't stand to fly
I'm not that naive
Men weren't meant to ride
With clouds between their knees
[-it's not easy-] by five for fighting

i love this song, cause i am too naive sometimes, i see things too straight, yet... maybe i should've cried. just don't know why i couldn't force some tears out of my eyes. (feelings are all too into the song~ haha, beg ur pardon~)

being optimistic is something i have been doing well in the past few years before i started my journey into adulthood. I guess, adults have their own problems, don't they? previously, as the eldest child, i don't see why my parents treat me so strictly, why they forbidden me to involve myself in relationship at young age, why i'm not suppose to do things my way? why why why...? there's so many question marks in that thick skull of mine. So many questions unanswered, so many things i don't understand...

Now, i finally understand all those questions that have been bothering me for ages. All my parents doings only serve one purpose, to protect me. It took me awhile to understand all these, since now i'm exposed to people from different sides of the world, i guess i grown up a little, mentally and physically without knowing. Became stronger, far more matured than who I was.

Yet, still, i'm thankful for what my parents did to me. They have given me some remarkable childhood memories for me to remember, how they have loved me and they still love me that way. Guess i'll always be a child in their eyes, always and never will changed.

i missed my hometown friends, yes guys~ sorry to say this though it sounds so disgusting. haha, yes i missed every single one of you. It's so cool back then in secondary where we really do what the hell we like, how we get ourselves into endless troubles, how we bring snacks into classes and just don't give a damn about the teacher teaching so hard in front, how we just walk out of school during classes, man... i miss those times. It's so carefree and fun, i don't have to wear a mask, i could just be myself... it's so comfortable to be with you all. I guess it's gonna be hard for me to find another gang like that anymore. haha, you are all TRUELY one of a kind~!

owh well, it's been a year already since i left secondary yet i still longed to return to those times, better yet, i should return to the time when i was just a kid! wow... bet it'll be far better~




There was once a genius, who says, life is really odd! what is death? after working, studying, stressed out, old, suffering, all we get is just by leaving this world? just gone into dust? just die?
Actually, if we are given a chance to alter the process of life, what would u do?

i would prefer, we are born old, tired, getting our retirement, free and relaxing.

after a few years, we are back again in work, young, full spirited, innovated, competitive, minds are filled with *brilliant* ideas. Then, we become teenage, filled of mischievous ideas and pranks, running around carefree, doing what ever we please. times flew by again, we become kids, aimless, free, only play around and enjoy life.

after that we slowly enter the womb again, and slowly we become embryo and slowly... into a cell. And finally puff~! gone from this world~!

that's how life should be~

what do u think about he's theory about the reverse of life? i find it quite interesting, as we slowly experience back life, we tends to enjoy it far better~ rather than to die old, we could just die as a child, a cell, into nothing. that's life should be, don't you think so ? ;)

a small confession

do you know, how much feelings i have towards u...? there's alot of things i should've tell u, i just couldn't find the confident, couldn't find the courage, to tell u everything, from the deepest place in my heart.

sometimes, there are some words unable to say it out loud...

i understand, tat maybe i am not fit to be with u, not fit enough to carry these feelings for u so strongly, maybe i'm not the one special tat you dream of... but why...? i also don't noe. this feeling of mine, is a pain... seriously it hurts... final is coming yet i'm worrying abt this still. It's has begun since the 1st sem. yet... it grows continuously till now. I've tried alot of ways to kill it, but i ended up hurting myself, physically n mentally. It's a bother, really... but i could not do anything to get rid of it.

sometimes i wish, u could just tell me sincerely, what am i to you? who am i?

am i just a frien? merely a frien...? can't a guy ask for more? can we be more than friends?

i dunno whether should i say all these or not, but it's been hidden in my heart for a long time. Confusing, heartache, pain all stirring together and drowning me in sorrow.

why? why am i different from others?

am i just an alien?

i'm lost... god, can u guide me...? i know there r far more alot of people facing more serious issues and some are even far worse than i am. but... i am lost...

i don't know wad else to do... should i just let go...?

it's so devastating... does *tat person* noes how i feel?

does she noes how much i care for her?

IF...
i'm dead...
will anyone cry...?
will anyone care...?
probably not...
i laughed when i see myself thinking this... haha, stupid head...


i'm pathetic...
why can't i let go like others do?
i'm useless...
why can't i go on my regular life without friends?
i'm too stupid...
why can't i be more MATURED??

god... i'm seriously... dunno what else should i do anymore...

i guess the only thing i can care now... n focus on

is my final...
but i doubt i'll score well....
doubt tat how long i can stand the pressure n frustration...
giv me a break...

i wanna forget.... forget everything... everything....