recently, alot of people says i'm acting cool, don't talk with ppl, acting weird, hard to understand, rather just avoid me. haha, wad a perception... wad an assumption, i understand that it's not easy to get close to someone who is cold, quiet, and weird. But i guess that's who i am lately. i am a weirdo. Seriously sometimes i feel so myself, but of course i'll kept quiet if there's no one i know or can talk with. and of course, if i'm not close to you... i would prefer to keep quiet =)

then again, after reading a survey, i feel that i just drop some details abt me, for those that dun understands me (please don't make assumptions will u?)

Overall, i am


-Competitive in everything. (not really in everything, just some)
-Loyal and generous towards friends.
-Active in games and interactions.
-Impatient and hasty. (i guess i just want to see the end result faster?)
-Emotional. (i hate my face...)
-Ambitious. (hoping to do well in my job next time to have alot of $$$)
-Influential in organizations.
-Fun to be with. (this i let u to decide)
-Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. (this is one of the comment i heard alot lately)
-Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. (i always think ahead of stuffs, to plan, to organize)
-Easily influenced by kindness.
-Polite and soft-spoken.
-Having lots of ideas. (i dun like this either... makes my mind think too much)
-Sensitive. (not totally, but some topics... yes)
-Active mind. (too active...)
-Hesitating, tends to delay.
- Love with everything they have.
-Choosy and always wants the best. (well, who won't? )

thousands of emotions from someone i love

when i looked into her eyes... all i can say is i'm sorry...

I was thinking, pondering over on my latest test yet to come - Applied maths. is it going to be difficult, or is it really going to turn out as my nightmare? thinking so deeply... suddenly my phone rang. It turns out that my mom was already in malacca, along with my grandmother. she called to ask me for lunch today, so, i turned up canceling all my afternoon classes and plan to spend the whole afternoon with them. =)

Never had i expected that my aunt and uncle also tagged along. We had a happy chit chat and then we decided to go to Malacca Mall for a walk, I got myself 2 decently neat t-shirts to make up for the shirts my maid *destroyed*. I have no idea how she did it, but she turned my white shirt into slight pink colour, and made my black shirt looked freaking old! ah... they were my favorites~! owh well, i guess the old ones don't go, the new ones won't come ~...

Finally it was time for us to part, as my mom was rushing to reach muar in time for her dancing class. I have to stay back due the several events and my Applied Maths examination on Saturday. therefore, i told my grandmother i won't be going back with her to Muar. She smiled to me and say it's alright as study is more important. I somehow felt sorry and sour when i looked into her eyes, it looks like the eyes of loneliness, eyes that longed to see their children happy and always caring for them; these are the eyes of an old lady filled with love and kindness.

She looked so sad, so i gave her a kiss, and reassure her that i'll be back next week, to see her and be with her. She looked at me, held my hands firmly and smiled, this time, it shines so comforting...

How i giggled when i recalled my grandmother running off to some strangers and start expressing how happy and how proud she is to have her children, her grandchild with her right now. It was like looking at a young kid, innocent, contented, happy and proud of their achievement. No matter what she does or did, I truely respect my grandmother and I'm proud of her too. She's one strong and loving woman, besides my parents, she is the next person that really love me and treat me like a diamond. (i guess i was spoiled by her...XD) Still...

Thank You GRANDMA~! U ARE THE BEST!!!

Lov3 you ALWAYS~

grandma n mom in mom's office 2005

grandma and sister on the hill~

Acting Cute?? LOL~
She's my Grandmother! =) proud to SAY IT!! XD

a confession... something i wan to confess to everyone

here i would like to make a confession, i like a girl alot when i first enter MMU... she's like an angel, haha, seriously... that's what i thought about ur smile when we 1st met, i guess that's what made u so special n somehow attracted me to know more about u... haha

yes, it's true. I did alot to try to understand her, be with her, protecting her... it was really something i have never done before. ( i was in an all-boys-school when i was in secondary... naturally i'm not exposed to such things) Anyway, the reality world... is cold and cruel, so we never were together.

till now, i can somehow recall the pain i felt that time, gave me the feeling that i don't really know why am i still standing here n wasting my life staring at the clouds... life began to felt lonely and meaningless, i tried bury myself with studies and activities everyday and come back home looking half-dead and just sleep dead till the next day for the same routine all over again.

This continues till i can't imagine what life would become any better till i met another girl in my hometown, she somehow manage to drag my attention towards her. Listening to my pain n sorrows, it's like we knew each other for a very long time, and then she told me that she like me. Well, honestly at tat time i do like her, like her naiveness, how she cares about me, how frank we are towards each other, so... i decide to be with her, as i guess it's time... for me to move on, to forget about the past, forget about everything...

Instructions: Remove ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.
Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.



1. Who is your all-time inspiration?
- my parents, true friends n my brothers n sister!!! XD

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
- hmm... maybe? =)

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most?
- england... australia.... anywhere that i nvr been there before, but all i wan is to go with friends n family~ make the whole trip meaningful n fun~

4. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
- to find a special someone =)

5. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
- literally or naturally, both also yes. i do believe that something good eventually will turn out after something bad...

6. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
- friends n family... don't wanna be alone

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
- help my brothers in their study funds and let my parents travel around the world ~

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
- depending on the situation.... i would =)

9.List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
- friendly, cheerful, happy-go-lucky~

10. What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
- just feelings towards each other, that's enough

11. Which type of person do you hate the most?
- backstabbers, 2 faced friends ( i met alot after coming to uni... sienx...), ppl that thinks results is more important than frienship

12. What is your ambition?
- no comment, as long as earn alot then i'm happy~

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
- Just point it out, i'd rather u do that than telling tales abt me behind my back, thank you. -.-

14. If you were given a chance to undo a past, what would it be?
- to study well during 1st n 2nd sem.... lol

15. Are you a shopaholic or not?
- not really, i am a guy that spends when i feel like spending... lol

16. Find a word to describe the person who tagged you.
- interesting...haha

17. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
- i wanna change my style... maybe more outgoing? haha

18. What’s the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
- heard that some ppl don't like the way i *interact* with others n thinks i'm unworthy to be their frien...( heartache...)

19. What is the thing on earth that you want it to disappear?
- tell-tales....

20. Do you wish someone special is here with you right now?

- waiting for that miracle to happen....

and so, finally i finished this tagged stuff, eh, haha, so... i suppose i need to tag another 8 person, am i?

alright... so here goes

Yee Meng

Donald

Wei Jian

Ariel

Sue Jane

Ru Yen

Sher ling

cheers to the lucky ppl above... =)